I have been through a lot of things but there was one thing that drove me to where I am today.
My best friend and the man that would love me my whole life passed away. I felt like my whole world changed that day. I felt alone even though I still had my mother and my family. I felt an empty whole in me. I do not have the same relationship with my mother as I did with my father, not even close. In fact, it is the opposite, we argue, we do not talk, and we disagree. I sometimes feel like I do not have a mother. I see her as a sister because of her immaturity. Maybe it is because she gave birth to me at the age of 15.
I can go on with my life, of course we all have to when a loved one passed away, but it was hard, he was my dad and the one that helped me with everything. I believed I can push myself to succeed just like he wanted me too even with this whole in my heart. I finished my certification in massage therapy, and needed to move out before my mother and I “killed” each other. I had a good job that allowed me to move out on my own at 21. (My dad passed away when I was 19) I believe that I can and will continue achieving what I want.
It was hard continuing school with bills to pay but I have learned that what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger as a person. I finally got the hang of paying bills and saving some money for school. I continued my education to receive an associates. I have done a good job on my own even though I am 23. It may take me awhile, but I ill get there. I will take baby steps because its not about how fast I get there, its about what is waiting for me with my accomplishments. I am aiming to study physical therapy.
I believed I could, so I did. I will continue to do so and I could only hope my dad is proud of me and who I am becoming. It has been hard but its not impossible. I expect great things for myself and I plan to achieve them. I am still young for some people and I know I have more to go. Life is tough, but I believe in myself. I will always believe in myself.
